is something ive never had, always low self esteem. when i was young i had buck teeth, big glasses and was chubby so of course i was teased, and for two i grew up mostly with my dad and i never learned anything about confidence or how to carry myself and over the years the many relationships that i have had tht were mostly bad didnt help either..even though the one person who did me the most wrong, made me feel the most beautiful, and thats when i knew he was telling the truth. he wasnt a good guy but in those moments  i knew he was being genuiune, so now yes im self conscious and prolly always will be, no matter how perfect i plan to get my teeth or how much weight i lose. being imperfect...makes me well, me.