ok one thing that bothers me and i know its cause i have low self esteem but i see pix of my man with his friends or exes all of whom are skinny and it makes me feel out of place for some reason, maybe cause im not a social butterfly or i dont go out much. weight has been an issue with me for awhile but when i decide to lose it ill do it but i only want to do it for me and when i am ready and he pushes that. he says it shows that i am uncomfortable and after all these years i dont get why, ive always been a heavier girl. and maybe its cause i think he is so attractive that he deserved better and i hate feeling like that, i really do. but once i get working or unemployment in, i plan on going to the gym and start cutting out my diet, etc. just a random thought because sometimes i dont think he really thinks im beautiful, even though he tells me every day. i know alot of this is my head but i cant help it...same thing with trust.