sometimes i feel like he deserves more

maybe not more, maybe 'better' is the word

i dont know why or what happened to

have this lingering constantly in my head.

im not very outgoing or confident

but i know how to love and

i believe i do that well

my mind likes to play tricks on me

and sometimes i think i self sabatoge

but i always wonder what will make him stay,

i know men love shiny things and what

if i lose my luster and he sees a glimmer elsewhere

what if im too nice, does he see that

weak and possibly a pushover

i do for those i love and it

tends to be taken advantage of

( DEFINATELY NOT saying he is )

just thinking about the past and relationships

what keeps a man from not straying

or not lying or not keeping his word

i see it way too much these days.

why be in a relationship if your not

happy with the one you have waiting at home

is it fun dodging texts or phone calls

hiding the screen when your online

-smh-